study.dissapointment.mylaptop.stupidphase.

nerdify me please.
arghh.
i can't focus.
i'm so stressed & my non-functioning brain is. non-functioning.
so many stupid things on my mind.
i hate studying. i can't focus & i have so much work to do.
i have headaches like almost every day & i get a stupid tug feeling. [kat get's what i mean].
i have to study for the numerous tests and courseworks next week.
i hate how they cram all the tests in one week.
sucks.
oh well. i guess i'll just have to cram.
which i hate doing.
blecchhkkkk. sickening.

screw laptops.
yes. my laptop is screwed/broken/i don't know what happened to it.
i somehow dropped my laptop on the floor today.
my brain wasn't functioning. cause i was thinking of some stuff.
two possibilities:
1. i dropped it.
2. slipped of my three other files.
3. someone pushed me.
4. turned around to fast?
i honestly can't remember.
my brain doesn't work.
well. my laptop's screen is broken.
the hard-drive is fine. i mean. everything is still on.
it's just that the screen is green. which maxine would love.
but not me.
it flickers and werid lines appear. on and off.
i basically can't access it.
stupid mechanical things.
hopefully it won't cost alot.
urgh. i hate my strange, annoying, stressed life.

dissapointment.
i can't do this anymore.
truly truly truly insensitive.
shoving it into my face.
i'm not stupid.
the secretive thing going on is stupid.
please don't ever think that i don't get things.
i'm smarter than you think i am. when it comes to these things.
- lies.
- insensitivity.
am i supposed to go through this all the time?
don't you ever think of how i feel?
i honestly don't know how to confront you.
scared you won't give a shit.
i feel like screaming and ripping my head off.
have some feelings for other people please. just try it.
ahhh mannn...
you're just contradicting yourself. with everything you say.
how do i talk to you?
i never knew you could think of betraying.
nevermind.
i'll sort it out.

somehow...
i hate this tug feeling.
xoxo
rachel.